I will always grieve to some extent for my lost children. I will always remember my babies and wish beyond wishes that I could smell their smell or hold their weight in my arms, raise them with their siblings, enjoy them with their grandparents...But as time goes on, this wishing will no longer deplete me of the will to live my own life.............but I will never forget. Losing a parent is losing your past but losing your child/ren is losing your future.